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[May. 18th, 2005|08:11 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | Bell X1 - Eve the apple of my eye | ] |
<3
I recieved a text message from a new person in my life, a certain Mitch Malone, last night.
"I miss you beautiful. I had so much fun talking to you last night. You are so gorgeous."
How sweet is that? He says things to me like that everytime we talk, and no one guy has ever called me gorgeous or beautiful as much as he has. I can't wait to talk to him tonight. He makes me feel special. I can't stop smiling when I'm on the phone, haha. I feel like such a tweenie (a word for a girl around 13-14, hehe).
Onto other things... the opening night for musical is in around two weeks and, big suprise, we aren't ready! Adam didn't even have a script until last week, and he's the main male character, Billy. I had to lend him mine, lol. Songkee and I are in the chorus as well as our characters, and it's ticking me off because Carly (choreographer) is changing the moves EVERY FUCKING TIME WE RUN THROUGH THE ROUTINES. Blah! Not cool. We have rehearsal this afternoon, which should be interesting.
Hope everyone is well. Ciao.
Sxx |
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[Apr. 25th, 2005|07:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rocky Horror Picture Show | ] |
I went to NIDA last weekend (National Institute for Dramatic Arts) for a singing intensive course. It was pretty good, though I was the youngest person there at 17! Crazy ma'am, just crazy.
I'm at Kate's house right now, supposed to be studying but she's in her bedroom doing god knows what with ... funnily enough, I feel more intimately alone right now than I have in a long time.
Bleugh.
What a yucky feeling.
Where's my night in shining armour to rescue me??? |
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[Apr. 4th, 2005|08:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Mmm.... shapes | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i have nothing - whitney houston | ] |
I'm at school... I have frees, but alas, I am forced to stay here as it's too far to go home and back here again for rehearsals after school. Yeck. I went up to the towers to get food though, in lunch, but I'm back. But eating Arnotts Shapes helps a lil bit :-P
My friend Renata has talked her bf into setting me up with one of her mates, who apparently is 19, male (lol...), tall, buff, and a cutie. But everyone says that about their male friends. Who knows? I said 'why not, what have i got to lose?' and so in five weeks, when Renata's bf comes back home to NSW (he's in the navy), we'll meet up.
Also met a guy in Melbourne who wants to shag me. We've been having some very naughty sms conversations, mwuahaha! |
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[Mar. 18th, 2005|07:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | in his eyes - from jekyll and hyde | ] |
IT MIGHT RAIN TODAY!
Finally!
Good morning folks, how are we all?
Yesterday was terrible - after the previous entry - I ended up having a panic attack and stayed home. DAMN I hate those, I just want to squeeze the life out panic attacks and put them in a pot and boil em up. Yeah, that's right. Boil!
So tomorrow I'm opening up (because I have a special key because I'm a special person), and workin from 9-3. Visit me! I'm there the whole time by myself until Tara comes to work the evening shift I swapped her for. Argh. I'm all alone, there's noone here beside me... Later in the evie-nin Mike, Kylie, Leonie, John and Kylies bub Chloe are coming over for a night of fun and games. Can't wait.
That's about it for now... I'm working on my monologue atm for my Drama IP (HSC individual project), and have had a mental blank - again. |
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[Mar. 17th, 2005|10:20 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful (I'll put a spell on you) | ] |
I've been a cam whore today :P
Oh well... here are the end results. I don't think I look that bad!
( It's like Satan reincarnated into a cardboard tube!! - Chinese Finger Traps )
<--My camera sucks-->
Jade called me last night... which is extremely odd - I haven't spoken to her in months (cept for a few times on the net). I think she gossips too much, but meh. Almost as soon as she said 'Hi' she goes on about The Boy and his lady, and how their in a bit of confusion or something.
And funnily enough my heart does not bleed for them. It's none of my business whatsoever and hopefully they'll work it out or whatever they want to do.
Sometimes I am better off isolating myself I'm thinking!
I think school assemblies are made for teachers just to complain about the students.
Be happy!
Mr.McGuiness had to watch over a Year 10 girl in our music class, and said to us when she left that 'She's been a tart since Year 7.'
Go McGoogen! Celeste and I loved that, he's awesome. We keep seeing her now - omgliekwow there's that tart!
In the assembly after school yesterday she got in trouble again from him.
Fun times with weapons. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2005|09:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Requiem for a Dream theme music | ] |
"I think I’ve found a sport I like more than surfing. Ok so what I do is I go down to the beach, get a bucket and fill it up with water. I take it home – and I fucken drink it. Then I get a plank of wood and hit myself over the head over and over and over again, and I get a razor and cut my feet and my legs, then I get a friend to come over every fifteen minutes and punch me and yell ‘Fuck off weekender!’
And I like that… just as much as I like surfing." |
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|09:44 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Charlotte Church - All Love Can Be | ] |
Yeah I changed the layout again :) Guilty.
But I think this one is much much cuter.
Yeah.
Cute.
Argh.
You know when you just want to push someone out of your life because honestly you don't want to put up with their shit anymore? The shit that seems to be directed at you? Well, I'm in kind of a confuddled state at the moment.
It's... The Boy.
All of a sudden... The Boy has decided to show his rear end in my life again. Just when I made sure he wasn't going to show his rear end again. God, it's so - so confusing, because I don't know what to say or what to do, I have no idea how to act around him.
I need to forget about him.
Celeste would kill me if she found out I've been talking to him. It's funny, she said he was bad news from the start and she was right.
I wish I'd listened.
I'm a mess.
Not in the teary fashion, but in my head. I can't think straight.
On other news, my money has finally come through and I can spend spend spend :) Five hundred bucks, the most I've ever had at my disposal - groovay. I'm goin to get the first season of "Little Britain" on dvd, that's the first thing I'll buy. That show is damn funny.
Ok, I can't be fucked to right about meaningless stuff like that.
I have no energy to pretend I'm fine.
I'm not. |
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[Mar. 9th, 2005|07:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | satisfied | ] |
| [ | music |
| | a fine romance | ] |
Wee!!
Look at my new layout! Isn't it the bomb? Lol. Ya, I'm quite bored. Bored bored BORED....
Comment on what you think. |
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| Stolen from Quel <3 |
[Feb. 28th, 2005|04:07 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | All the arms around you - halloween alaska | ] |
Opening song: The Propellerheads - History Repeating
Waking up: The Perishers - Trouble sleeping
First date: Turin Brakes - Pain killer
First kiss: Ben Folds - Best imitation of myself
Falling in love: Chantel Kreviazuk - Feels like home
Seeing an old love: Iron and Wine - The sea and the rhythm
Heartbreak: Heather Nova - Heart and Shoulders
Driving fast: Ben Folds - Stevens last night
Getting ready to go out: Scissor Sisters - Take your mama out
Partying with friends: Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Higher ground
Dancing at a club: DJ Mystik - Send me an Angel
Flirting: George Michael - Freeek!
Feeling sexy: Bond - Horobusko (this version is just so sensual)
Walking alone in the rain: My Chemical Romance - Helena
Missing someone: PJ Olsson - Ready for a fall
Playing in the ocean: Halloween Alaska - All the arms around you
Summer vacation: Reel Big Fish - Cheer up
Fighting with someone: Empty Apartment - Yellowcard
Acting goofy with friends: Living End - Prisoner of society
Thinking back: U2 - Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Feeling depressed: Sarah McLachlan - Perfect girl
Christmas time: Otis Redding - White Christmas
Falling asleep: Aqualung - Strange and beautiful (I'll put a spell on you)
Closing song: Leona Naess - Christmas |
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[Feb. 11th, 2005|08:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lala - ashlee simpson (yeah, i know) | ] |
Wee! I gots ma hair cut :) It looks fantasmic.
Musical auditions were on Tuesday, I have a callback for the last auditions which, not to brag, I was expecting. I don't mean to sound up myself, it's just that I'm one of the only theatre/broadway singers in the school. The musicals 'Anything Goes' which is awesome, that musical kicks ass.
Right... I got a job at Video Ezy and that also kicks ass, heaps of fun, nice people work there, fun people, and also a guy that I've liked for ages... mwuahaha. *grins stupidly*
I don't know what else to write. At the end of this I'll put a pic up of what my hair looks like now...
Argh, so today. Then bowling tomorro, then work from 6-11, then I get trashed with ma girlfriends, all good.
( Read more... ) |
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|05:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  determined | ] |
| [ | music |
| | float on - modest mouse | ] |
I was on my GJ, and a friend got me thinking.
What are my resolutions? Usually I don't stick to the ones I make, somewhere between can't be stuffed and I'm too busy usually takes my mind off them, and the others I forget.
But maybe this year it'll be different.
I'll make this a public entry so that everyone can see it. Because some of you need to.
This year has been, challenging. I have seen so much and gone through so much, and yet, I still somehow have managed to prevail and here I sit, staring back at all of the memories and wondering how I have become the person that I am now, and how it is that I find myself in this place.
I have lost many friends this past year, due to misunderstandings and even simply to the fact that people change. I have not felt like I have been the greatest friend I can be to those friends that HAVE stuck by me. And so for that, I apologize to all of you, my real life friends as well as my on-line friend, especially to Celeste, Kate, Gabby, Hannah, Jelena, John, David, Jonaye, Gordy, Clay, Briggs, Steve, Steve, Sami, Sam, Alicia, Soph etc etc. This year has been very hard for me, and i ma very well aware that the hard times are nowhere near ending. Thanks to all of my friends who have attempted to make me feel better, because just the fact that you guys care and try brings a smile to my face and a drop of joy to my heart.
I have been hurt a lot this past year, and I have hurt many people. And for that, I also apologize. I truly don't mean anybody any harm at all. I have actually suffered some of the deepest heartaches in my whole lifetime this year, and it has been very tough. I have had trouble adjusting to new situations. I have had trouble making up my mind about certain things and feelings and it's been very rough.
Yeah, so that's out of the way.
My resolutions?
To get in touch more so with my spiritual side. There are so many levels of myself that I haven't yet discovered, and I'm thinking that this year would be a great time to start. I need to start. Because I won't recover from the Black Dog if I don't find myself and what I'm all about.
To see my family more, the family outside my immediates, and especially Jonaye, my god-sister. I miss you babe, I hope you had a great Christmas with Gordy and your mum, dad and Corynne. On saying all that, I want to care about my family more as well, and to understand what they're going through as well. I want to take my camera with me to capture all the moments that are special to me so I can look back on them in years to come.
To give more time to myself and my needs, and not to follow people as much as I did in 2004. I want to be independant and have a say in what I do, and not let people walk over me. I may lose some friends that way, but I guess I'll make new friends along the way that treat me better. I want to lay down by the pool for hours just listening to my music and get caught up in it, there is nothing better than music.
To not be such a stupid blonde at times, and keep my head about me. Short and sweet.
To be a stronger person in and out, to get rid of my thin skin and the demons that have haunted me from the past years. I know it's time to send them packing. I want to start fresh and fucking be happy.
I hope that from now on, whenever I see a homeless person I will give them atleast a dollar if possible. i usually try too ,but I sometimes just think "well they're probably lying anyways..." That is not my business, a person is in need of a sort of help and I should help them.
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I guess I've gotten a few things off my chest huh, lol. But I am going to try and stick to that list. I'll be a better person for it.
Happy New Year Everyone :) |
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